Birth Moms.

The reason for my blog is mostly to discuss a matter of the heart, well, my heart. For some time now, I have felt my heart growing, in the area of Birth Moms. I have always felt Birth Moms make a decision of undying love, to place their child for adoption, when we live in a society of other 'conveniences'. And as a mother, I know there can be not greater pain, then to hand over a child.
Our adoption is different from many, in that our girls mother did not make an adoption choice for them, but rather, as a result of her death, it became an option. And our girls were older children at the time of their adoption, so they have many wonderful memories of her.
I dont know their mother, I never met her. Her death was somewhere around the time that I was celebrating the discovery of my own first pregnancy.
Though I will not meet her on this side of Heaven, I love her. I love their mother. I love her for raising such amazing kids, for loving them so deeply, and teaching them to love. I love her for nursing the children I now call mine. I love her for comforting and singing to them. I love her for keeping them warm, and safe, and well.
She and I share something deeper then words, deeper then ourselves.
I pray often that I will love them as deeply as she did, that I can grow to know them the way she did. That I can show them the Light of Christ like she did.
I feel connected to her on a level that can only be understood as Spiritual.